Ive been so consumed in Work for the last 7+ years of my life, that Ive gone through some personal emotional struggles. Ive battled depression, Ive battled weight gain, Ive battled health, And Ive battled with maintaining a relationship.
2015 has been a year of sweeping all the trash and dust in my life and throwing it away. By that I mean, Ive been cleaning up a lot of the problems I have and making room for new and wonderful things to happen in 2016. It's not easy but Im giving myself 12 months to work on it.
I hired someone wonderful January to help me here at work, and that has given me time to care for myself. Her help has been what Ive needed, and maybe I was afraid to ask for help. Maybe I thought I was tough and could handle it, all while sinking into quick sand that was slowly drowning me.
In February I reached out and signed up for some health insurance. It's been the second best thing to happen. $317 bucks a month, you best believe Im taking advantage of that. *lol* Got these hormones back in a good balance, couldn't take this emotional rollercoaster anymore. Everything I needed to know, I got answers to. Im Healthy and that gives me so much peace of mind.
I started working out, and getting those endorphins going. Not going to lie, it was hell at first. Now, I've started doing my favorite workout, which is Jump rope, without being scared of breaking my knees and ankles. lol Ive lost quite a bit of weight (not going to say an exact number but trust me, it's quite a bit) and I feel my confidence going up. Watch out 2016, they aint ready for MarMar.
**Sigh** Dating. Dating in itself is hard. Dating after not dating for a while is nerve wrecking. When do you know you're actually ready to start dating? That's a question Ive been asking myself. I don't want to start a relationship with a bag full of problems. FYI, that bag is in the trash bin. ;) How do I ease my way back in the dating scene? What will I say? I have gotten so many 'advice' from many friends in relationships, "Get on an online dating site AGAIN". Can't two people meet naturally any more? Maybe online dating is the new Natural. Maybe my soulmate lives out of state, Maybe I need to move. Maybe I just need to relax and give it a chance, Give MYSELF a chance.
2015 is getting close to ending and I have to say that God is Blessing me beyond measures Or maybe it's the Good luck Chinese money my friend Eugene gave me this year. Either way, Something beyond me and this world is looking out for me and Im sure everything will workout. One Favor to ask of you reading my Blog, Say a small prayer for me. ;)
Thank you all for reading and God Bless
LOVE,
MarMar
